Worse than death?

The song that I thought was called Better Off Dead was just on Pandora but it's actually called Nothing. I was thinking of this topic earlier but that helped me remember it. Now the song Counting Stars is on, yours and Nance's song.

Jake was in a car accident this afternoon. He's fine. I'm glad he's fine. His car is totaled, but they're covered. Everything worked out for them. A lady pulled out in front of him on Michigan Ave. just past Wal-Mart. She said she didn't see him. Her fault. He went to an Urgent Care and was released. I will have to let this all sink in.

I guess I was thinking before I found that out that there are things that are worse than death. A lifetime of pain and suffering. A lifetime of not being able to care for yourself. A lifetime of dealing with a brain injury. A lifetime of no life. Is death better than that? Yes. Yes, it is. I have to keep telling myself that. It's what was the best outcome for you, but not for the rest of us. Love you!

Since this mentioned Jake's accident, I thought I would record something interesting that Nance told me about last night. She said when Jake saw the truck turn in front of him, he thought he was going to die. She also said though that the situation seemed very familiar to him. That was comforting for a second, like maybe you were there with him or something, protecting him like a guardian angel, but it also makes me think too that maybe you had that same thought at the time of your accident. I hope you didn't realize that, sweet boy. I hope it was so quick and you were not even conscious of it. I will have to ponder that thought for a while.

Something else-I was a little annoyed when Nance posted a picture of the accident on Facebook because I didn't understand why she did it-was it to align herself with us and what we went through, get sympathy, what? I understood later though that she just wanted everyone to know what happened and that he was ok. She said she felt guilty that their outcome was so different than ours. I said everyone's life has a different plan and that it's good that Jake is ok.