Choosing Life After Death

Big day for blogging! Came across this installment for #OCA series. I might only quote portions here and there. Oops-just remembered I didn't write down author of other one. Better do it now before I forget. Just did it. This one was written by Emily Garibaldi.

In my (45) short years on this earth, being (Hayden's and Hope's and Carter's) mom is the single most defining aspect of my existence and identity.

We felt our hearts shatter at the exact moment that (his) stopped.

As I reflect on (that time), I learned more than I have ever anticipated learning in my lifetime, and I am so thankful for it. (Hayden's) sheer will to live and to be happy has inspired me to continue on, for (him). Everyday that I wake up is for (Hayden and siblings). (He) has added so much more purpose to this world, even in death, and that is yet another amazing gift (he) has bestowed upon me. Despite the broken heart, there is pride under this sadness. I will forever be fortunate to have felt a love that is so indescribably raw and genuine, one that many seek for their entire lifetime.

So when asked, "How do you survive?" it is because I am so grateful to call (Hayden) my own, and no amount of grieving can take (his) spirit from my soul. I survive because (Hayden) needs me to, and I made a promise to (him) that I was going to carry on (his) legacy in this physical world. The world needs to know (he) existed. They need to know (his) story and how (he) inspired so many...

(He) gave us so much in (his) short life that it is my duty to live each moment of every day in (his) honor, even if it takes every ounce (and then some) of strength in my body to put my two feet on the ground every morning and look in the mirror..

I survive because I am choosing life, after (his) death.

To my sweet (boy), I carry on for you every day. We are so proud of you and thank you for giving us your unconditional love every day. You (and your siblings) will always be my greatest prize, and I will pick you in a thousand lifetimes. You are worth it.

By Emily Garibaldi