Self-sabotage

 When it's someone's first

time to be treated right in a

relationship, their tendency is

to self-sabotage it.

Not because they don't want

it, but because it feels "too

good to be true" and their brain

can't process what is 

happening with them.

Incredibly special

They always saw something

incredibly special in you.

And they were hoping with all of

their might you'd never see it too.

~Samira Vivette, from her book, "Wildfire"

Ironic

 Isn't it ironic?

"We ignore the ones who adore us,

adore the ones who ignore us,

love the ones who hurt us and

hurt the ones who love us."

Astonishing light

 I wish I could show you,

when you are lonely or in darkness,

the astonishing light of your own being.

~Hafiz

The magic

 When you realize you are the

magic, their rejection won't

rattle you, it'll just reveal who

was never ready for it.

~Truly Healed Women

Finally detached

 What made you finally detached?

I asked myself if this is how I want to be

loved for the rest of my life.

Want

No, f that. I want you. I want to love you. I want to 

want you like no one else has ever before. I want to be

the one you think about at 3 am and the one you wish

was there at 5 in the afternoon. I want to be the one to

make you laugh until you can't breathe anymore and the

only thing you have left is the short breaths you have to

take in from your stomach hurting. I want to be the one

to tell you how beautiful you are in any hour of the day

and meaning it every time. I want to be there for you

when you're feeling like s, to be the one to tell you

that it's going to be okay. I want to be the one to have

those "I love you more" conversations and still let you

win at the end of the day just because I adore you. I

want to be the one you look forward to talking to, not

just the other way around. I want to be that person

you'll share your deepest secrets with, the one you trust

the most to let you cry and still hold you afterwards. I 

want you to let me love you, in every form and in every

way. I want to be that person you let see your morning

hair, that person who tells you that you're still the most

breath-taking human even when you wake up. But most

of all, I want to be that person in years from now who

still looks at you is if you hung the f moon and 

say, "Yeah, that's mine."

Shutdown

 Being in a state of

shutdown due to 

ongoing mental 

abuse is often

confused with 

being lazy.

Not saying

Be wise

enough to 

listen to

what a 

person is 

not saying.

Understatement

 You are the finest,

loveliest, tenderest,

and most beautiful person

I have ever known -

and even that

is an understatement.

~F. Scott Fitzgerald

Wait

 He did tell me this once...

Wait for the man that will tell you, "I will

 never leave you because you're the one

 I prayed for. I asked God to have you."

Revealing colors

october is about

trees revealing

colors they've 

hidden all year

people have

an october

as well

~JmStorm

Break completely

 If you look back, you'll realize God never

let it break you completely. Yes, it hurt.

Yes, you cried. But somehow, you're still

here. And that's not just strength. That's

His hand holding you even when you

didn't feel it.

~3 am thoughts

Happy or strong

 Real men have a 

happy woman.

The rest have a 

strong woman.

Damages

 Trauma doesn't make people

stronger.

It damages their nervous

system. It hijacks their digestive

tract.

It keeps the person in a

constant loop of hypervigilance.

To tell someone they are

stronger because of trauma is to

deny what it has cost them to

survive.

Strangers

 I noticed your own people didn't 

support you, so I sent strangers.

~GOD

(i.e. The Holmes family, Elena, etc.)

Neglect

 People who avoid

their own feelings

are also going

to neglect YOURS.

The impossible

It hurts like hell when

you know that you need

to let go of someone but

you can't, because you're

still waiting for the

impossible to happen.

 

Stopped hurting

 Today I realized that

I fell in love with 

people who needed 

to be loved, not with

people who could

love me back. And

something inside me

stopped hurting.

Too good

 You weren't hard to love, you were too good

for someone who was too weak to handle

honesty, loyalty, accountability, and integrity.

~Mark Smith

Stretch marks

in the end

i want my heart

to be covered

in stretch marks.

~Andrea Gibson

Own struggles

 When someone mistreats you, it reflects

their own personal struggles, not your worth.

Emotionally healthy people do not

tear others down.