Here's the thing about people with good hearts. They give you excuses when you don't explain yourself. They accept apologies you don't give. They see the best in you when you don't need them to. At your worst, they lift you up, even if it means putting their priorities aside. The word "busy" does not exist in their dictionary. They make time, even when you don't. And you wonder why they're the most sensitive people. You wonder why they're the most caring people. You wonder why they are willing to give so much of themselves with no expectation in return. You wonder why their existence is not so essential to your well-being. It's because they don't make you work hard for the attention they give you. They accept the love they think they've earned and you accept the love you think you're entitled to. Let me tell you something. Fear the day when a good heart gives up on you. Our skies don't become gray out of nowhere. Our sunshine does not allow the darkness to take over for no reason. A heart does not turn cold unless it's been treated with coldness for a while.
Friday, July 31, 2020
Still wants you
Someone who truly loves you, sees what a mess you can be, how moody you can get, and how hard you can be to handle, but still wants you.
Vast unending emptiness
by Kalen Dion
You can't save everyone, my beloved...and I know that breaks your heart...but some people don't have a rock bottom, just a vast unending emptiness that no amount of love could ever fill.
Difficult conversations
When we avoid difficult conversations, we trade short-term discomfort for long-term dysfunction.
Could have
from 3 am Thoughts
You could have grown cold, but you grew courageous instead. You could have given up, but you kept on going. You could have seen obstacles, but you called them adventures. You could have called them weeds, but instead you called them wildflowers. You could have died a caterpillar, but you fought on to be a butterfly. You could have denied yourself goodness, but instead you chose to show yourself some self-love. You could have defined yourself by the dark days, but instead through them you realized your light.
How serious
from 3 am Thoughts
Anxiety can cause panic attacks, increased heart rate, nausea, sickness, chest pain, stomach pain, shaking, fatigue, headaches, muscle tension and insomnia. A panic attack has been likened to feeling like a heart attack. People need to start recognizing how serious anxiety can be.
It is God
by Elisabeth Elliot
It is God to whom and with whom we travel,
and while He is the end of our journey,
He is also at every stopping place.
Good things grow
from Rainbow Rowell
So, what if, instead of thinking about solving your whole life, you just think about adding additional good things. One at a time. Just let your pile of good things grow.
Your precepts
Bible Gateway Verse of the Day
Psalm 119:93
I will never forget your precepts,
For by them You have given me life.
Five minutes
by Leonard Ravenhill
Five minutes inside eternity
and we will wish that we had
sacrificed more, wept more,
loved more, grieved more,
prayed more, sweated more,
and given more.
Tuesday, July 28, 2020
Race of Faith
Bible Gateway Verse of the Day
Hebrews 12:1
The Race of Faith
Therefore, we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us,...
Tuesday, July 21, 2020
Tell every person
by Zoe Clark-Coates
I want to tell every person in
the whole world about you.
I want them to know
how I love you.
The stars to know
how I adore you.
The sun to know
how I will always miss you.
Fear not
Bible Gateway Verse of the Day
Isaiah 41:10
Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed,
for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.
Wednesday, July 15, 2020
High tolerance
from Flying Free
A history of trauma can give you a high tolerance for emotional pain.
Just because you can take it doesn't mean you have to.
Sunday, July 12, 2020
What we crave
from 3 am Thoughts
We think we want sex.
It's not always about sex.
It's intimacy we want.
To be touched.
Admired.
Smiled at.
Laugh with someone.
Feel safe.
Feel like someone's really got you.
That's what we crave.
Never
by Ziad K. Abdelnour
Never reply when you are angry.
Never make a promise when you are happy.
Never make a decision when you are sad.
His way is perfect
Bible Gateway Verse of the Day
Psalm 18:30
As for God,
His way is perfect;
The word of the Lord is proven;
He is a shield to all who trust in Him.
Exceedingly abundantly
Bible Gateway Verse of the Day
Ephesians 3:20-21
Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church.
Thursday, July 9, 2020
Amount of work
We either make ourselves miserable
or we make ourselves strong.
The amount of work is the same.
Out there
In relation to "M-1"
There's a man out there searching for everything you're giving to a man who isn't man enough to appreciate it.
About why
I want to build a relationship with someone who cares about "why" I've been quiet all day.
Not someone who gets mad because I'm "acting different."
Someday
Someday, you'll realize it wasn't your fault.
He just didn't know what to do with a woman like you.
Unholy
by Paul Washer
When I speak in universities, they're always quick to point out, "No, God cannot hate because God is love." And I tell you God must hate because God is love. You see, I love children; therefore, I hate abortion. If I love that which is holy, I must hate that which is unholy."
With you
Happiness starts with you -
not with your relationships.
not with your job,
not with your money,
but with you.
Worth everything
from 3 am Thoughts
I just want someone to look at me and just think, "She's worth everything."
(Side note: I do...God)
How you lose her
from 3 am Thoughts
This Is How You Lose Her When She Wanted To Be Yours
You lose her when you stop paying attention to her. To her feelings. To the changes in her behavior. To the sadness in her eyes. To the things she's been subtly asking you to do but you've been oblivious to them all.
You lose her when you give her the feeling that her presence in your life is not important. That you're fine without her, that you don't need her in your life as much as she needs you. When you make her feel that spending time with her is an obligation and not something that will make your day better.
Private
Date in private.
Love in private.
Be happy in private.
Live in private.
Make money in private.
Take your losses in private.
Rebuild yourself in private.
This next door
by Toby Mac
And when
God opens
this next
door,
you're
going to
understand
why the
enemy
fought
you so
hard.
God's will
As much as you want
to plan your life, it has
a way of surprising you
with unexpected
things that will make you
happier than you
originally planned.
That's what you call GOD'S WILL.
Meant to be
by Genie Graveline
We Were Meant To Be
One "lonesome" day...God looked down from above,
then He said, "I can see...you need someone to love.
Someone who's caring, and gentle, and true,
Someone whose heart beats especially for you."
Then, almost as if it was by God's design,
You entered my life...and in time, you were mine.
You brightened my world like the rays of a star,
And all that I hoped for, is all that you are.
My prayers were answered the day that we met,
And as long as I live...I will never forget,
That some things in life are just meant to be,
And I'm sure that's the reason God sent you to me!
Light come on
from 3 am Thoughts
I think the most beautiful thing in the world is watching the light come on in someone's eyes after they've been lost in the dark for so long.
Lead with love
from Toby Mac
Jesus didn't say to wait for them to be kind first.
Go ahead, lead with love.
Mama Bear
from Still Standing
I'm Still Your Mama Bear, Even When You're Not Here
by Morgan McLaverty
I will always fight for you.
A simple concept but one I carry for EACH of my children. The Mama bear simply does not go away when one of your children dies.
That desperate desire to do for your child and to protect them against anything, even if you are only protecting their memory.
When I first lost my son and started to sort through my thoughts, I remember having these guilty feelings.
I felt like I was not physically doing enough for my child. I was mourning for him, hurting for him, lost without him.
Bereaved Motherhood: I Don't Know How To Do This Part
Still, I felt as if I was missing something. I was being placed in situations where his name wasn't spoken.
Where the name (Hayden) caused an obvious shudder in those I spoke openly to.
A purposeful avoidance of anything pertaining to him, to his loss, to the moments I carried him, even so far as to pretend the spacing of my living children was some purposeful, thought out dream.
I was allowing other people's thoughts of what grief was to them to define how I wanted to deal with his loss.
I realize I can't change how others choose to grieve (or not grieve) him but I am responsible to grieve him in a way that this Mama bear would take pride in, loudly.
My Mama bear lived on in my defiant mention of his life while others were discussing regular mommy milestones.
The awkward conversation went a little like this: "Breastfeeding is so hard. I was so engorged when baby missed a feed."
I answered back with a, "I've only ever been engorged once when I lost Lennon. Not the most pleasant thing."
Silence.
There is no way to clear a room faster than to mention your dead child to a proud new mother.
I wanted to share him, I wanted to be a part of something I used to belong to.
I may no longer belong to the shiny new mom club but I am still a mom to a sweet angel boy.
My desire to share him and protect his memory from fading lives in me and so I talk about him.
Do Me A Favor: Say His Name
My Mama bear instinct is to fight against my own desire to wallow in misery.
I catch myself often using such negative self talk about my loss and who I have had to become through it.
Whenever I start feeling resentful that I am forced to be this new person, forced to face life without him, I remember that even I have to remember to respect his memory.
I remember that the life that I lead without him is in place simply because I love him.
Our connection is so strong. I feel it in everything I do, in every moment, every breath.
I need to remember that the pain is the price I pay for loving him.
I never want the life I have as a product of his loss to be viewed as anything but positive.
I am a proud mother to a sweet boy who was never given the gift of his first breath.
I am the guardian of his memory and one of the few people who know just how much of an impact his little presence has had on this world.
I am a Mama bear, fiercely fighting for ALL of my children on Earth and in heaven.
There is no shame in that.
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