Afraid

 From Healing from Narcissistic...(Ahmad Burki)

"I'm afraid," I told him, my voice barely above a whisper. "Afraid of what?" he asked, his eyes locked on mine, filled with concern. "I'm afraid you won't love me anymore, I'm afraid I'm going to lose you," I confessed, my heart racing with vulnerability.  "I'm afraid you'll replace me and find someone better than me. I'm afraid someone will make you happier than I can. I'm afraid you will lose interest in me, and us, and walk away without looking back."

As the words spilled out, I felt my heart exposed, like I was standing on the edge of a cliff, waiting for him to either catch me or let me fall. The silence that followed was deafening, and I could feel my insecurities screaming to be validated. But then,

he took a step closer, his eyes never leaving mine, and wrapped his arms around me, holding me tight. "You're not going anywhere," he whispered, his breath sending shivers down my spine. "I'm not going anywhere. We're in this together."

"I'm afraid," I told him.

"Afraid of what?" he asked.

"I'm afraid you won't love me

anymore. I'm afraid I'm going to

lose you. I'm afraid you'll replace me

and find someone better than me.

I'm afraid someone will make you

happier than I can. I'm afraid you

will lose interest in me, in us."