New members of our group

Last night at Ele's Place, we had two new members in our group-Jason and Tammi Curtis Carr, Chad Carr's parents. I knew they were coming to Ele's Place at some point because she mentioned it in a Facebook post, but I was secretly hoping they weren't coming to our night because I didn't want to be nervous around them.
  Well, I saw Jason and one of his sons at the library book cart last night and then I thought there were other child loss groups for cancer, suicide, etc. When I told some members of the group that I saw them in the hallway, they said they would be in our group because it's the only child loss group.
   I already had some stuff to share, so I went ahead with it.  I shared the price of love thing from yesterday and also updated everyone about my contact with Drew's dad about talking to him about what he saw of your accident. I felt like I was talking a little too much though and that Fran was trying to make an impression on them or something and was getting annoyed by me. I mentioned this to Hope later and she thought this was dumb because nobody in her group gets annoyed if someone talks a lot, etc. But nobody else was talking anyway and I remember I thought it was odd the first night when there were periods of silence, like why am I here-just to sit in a circle with a bunch of people and not say anything? Some of the things that Fran was saying was depressing too, like you're sad for you losing your child but sad for your child losing their life too. And unanswered questions, like how far do you go/how much do you want to know? I mean, some of the things I was saying were hopeful, like I would still go through this grief for the amazing 17 years of having you, but she was trying to steer away from that thought. Oh, well. I make a lot of stuff up in my head. I think everyone hates me and that I annoy everyone.
  Anyway, back to the Carrs-I also wanted to keep in the habit of sharing while they were there so I didn't get nervous and have it be harder each week. At the end of the group, I introduced myself to both of them and told them I was sorry for their loss. They said they read all of the articles about you and that you sounded amazing. I told them I was so proud of you. I am! Always!