Finally detach

 "What made you finally detach?"

One day I stopped asking myself why they couldn't love me the way I 

needed, and asked myself something far more painful. If nothing

ever changed...if this was all they could give me...is this the kind

of love I want to wake up to for the rest of my life?

I sat with that question longer than I wanted to, because deep

down, I already knew the answer.

The hardest part wasn't accepting that they might never choose me

the way I kept choosing them. The hardest part was realizing I had

been asking my future to  survive on crumbs my heart was calling a 

feast. I kept hoping that one day the waiting would be worth it, that

one day I would feel loved instead of constantly trying to earn it.

And that's when I finally detached; because I could no longer

betray myself by calling loneliness "love." Some goodbyes don't

begin with anger. They begin the moment you realize you deserve

a life where love feels like peace instead of something you have to

constantly convince yourself to believe.