Trying

God: I see you trying

You: Trying what?

God: Everything. To be better. To heal. To show up. To

keep going when quitting feels easier. I see all of it.

You: It doesn't feel like enough for you, God

God: Because you're measuring progress by outcomes. I'm measuring it 

by effort. And your effort? It's more than enough.

You: But I keep messing up

God: So? You're human. Messing up is part of the process.

What matters is that you keep trying after you mess up.

And you do. Every single time.

You: I just feel like I should be further along by now.

God: Further along according to who? You're exactly

where you need to be. Learning what you need to learn.

Becoming who you need to become.

You: I'm tired

God: I know. But tired doesn't mean failing. It means

you're doing hard things. And I'm proud of you for not

giving up.

You: You are? That gives me strength. Thank you, God

God: I am. You showed up today. You're still trying. That's

all I need from you. Keep going. You're doing better than 

you think.

Tired

 A prayer for April

GOD, I'M TIRED

I'm tired of pretending to be strong

when I'm not. I'm tired of carrying

things I was never meant to carry.

Some days, I feel like I'm falling apart

on the inside.

But You, God...You never left me.

Even when I didn't feel You, You were

there. Even when I doubted You, You 

stayed.

God, I'm asking for Your presence.

Remind me that because You're within 

me, I will not fail.

Peace

 Peace is not passive.

It is the quiet strength

to pause before reacting,

to breathe before speaking,

and to choose softness

when chaos demands control.

Easily offended

 The more easily you get offended,

the less intelligent you actually are.

~Naval Ravikant

Angels/God

Angel 1: She keeps asking for it

God: I know. And the answer is still no.

Angel 2: Why? It's a good thing. She'd be happy.

God: She'd be happy for three months. Then it would crush her. She doesn't have the capacity to sustain it yet.

Angel 1: When will she be ready?

God: When she stops looking for it to complete her. Right now she thinks it'll fix everything. It won't. And when it doesn't, she'll fall apart.

Angel 2: So what does she need first?

God: To heal what she's trying to use this to cover. To build a foundation that can actually hold it. To become someone who can steward it well.

Angel 1: How long will that take?

God: As long as it takes. I'm not giving her something she'll lose because she wasn't ready for it.

Angel 2: She thinks you're withholding

God: I know. But I'm protecting . She sees this as the finish line. I see it as the starting point. And she's not ready for what comes after.

Angel 1: Will she understand eventually?

God: Yes. When she's ready and she gets it, she'll see why the wait was necessary. Why I made her build herself first. Why I didn't let her have it when she thought she needed it.

Angel 2: What should we tell her?

God: That my "not yet" is loving her better that her "right now" ever could.

Another voicemail

 New Voicemail from God - 10:30PM

"I need you to hear this:

you're doing better than you think you are.

I know your mind keeps replaying what you didn't do - the patience you

lost, the conversation you wish went differently, the progress you think you

should've made by now. But I see the full picture. I see your effort. I see 

your heart. I see you showing up even when it's hard. I see you trying again

after you fall short.

You're harder on yourself than I will ever be. When you look at yourself,

you see failure. When I look at you, I see growth. I see courage. I see

someone who refuses to give up.

You got up today. You kept going. You loved the people in front of you

even when you were running on empty. You did more than you're giving

yourself credit for. Stop measuring your worth by your productivity. Stop

judging your day by day by what you didn't get done.

I'm not disappointed in you. I'm proud of you.

You're doing so much better than you think."

~jacqueline whitney

A sign

GOD IS GIVING YOU A SIGN.

GOD SENT YOU THIS.

READ IN SILENCE. Psalm 46:10

"Be still and know that I am God."

Everything is going to be alright.

God knows you're tired.

He knows you've been doing your best.

He knows you're uncertain about what's next.

But He sees you. He sees that you haven't 

given up. He has a plan for you - and He will

fight for you.

Be still...have faith, and you won't have to

fight. God will move the wrong people out of

the way. He'll open doors you couldn't open

and turn your situation around. One day,

you'll cry again - not from pain, but because

God has answered your prayers.

Psalm 46:10 Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations. I will be exalted in the earth!"