I need to get this off my chest. No matter what, it seems like I never have the upper hand. This time I think I do but Bill doesn't want me to realize it.
What happens if I talk to K? What happens? Bill gets mad at me and divorces me, which is what I wanted in the first place? I get ex-communicated from church? I was prepared for that anyway. I don't lose the kids. I'm still in a better position than him to stay in the house. I'm not going to tell him this, but what happens?
It's kind of funny not funny, but I would be in a better position to get out of my marriage if I had an actual affair with him. I wouldn't do that, but it seems weird that doing that would end up with me getting what I wanted in the first place.
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