This phrase has crossed my mind a lot this past week, related to my post titled "Justice." The environment that he creates. I thought of it relation to seeking out the attention of another man and stealing diapers from the nursery-things that I know are wrong but seemed like an option. Things that I was forced to consider due to the environment that he creates.
I was thinking that as I wrote out a check to myself from a new credit card I recently opened. I opened it to transfer a balance but was at first only approved for $1000. Now it says I was approved for $4000. I used $300 of it to pay towards the repair of Chelsea's car. I used $221 of it to pay for my optometry visit until I got paid back. I did get paid back, but I am using some of that reimbursement as a cushion in my bank account since he didn't really get "paid" this week. Another $500 of it I had to use to pay for Shiloh's surgery-once again, because of no money. Then, as I write a check to myself for $500 to put into my checking account as a cushion and realizing that I now have $1500 of debt on this credit card that I didn't want to "use" in the first place. Why do I have to "use" it? Because Bill can't bring home a decent paycheck these days. Most days. The "good" ones are few and far between. And now he has racked up tens of thousands of dollars of debt on his credit cards.
I know things get slow. But I feel he has to plan for that and not spend like crazy in anticipation of when it gets better. He should have learned that by now. To be more conservative. And to not create the environment.
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