This happened last time I picked up Hope from the high school (I just remembered how you would say high school, with the emphasis on the high).I was looking at all of the teen drivers, one after another in each car and wondering if they were good drivers or if they took driving seriously. Today was especially rowdy because I picked Hope up earlier than 3 so there were a few lines of traffic to wait in, and there were guys honking and speeding up past each other, etc. I imagined you dealing with that every day after school. I'm sure you got used to it.
Today it made me think of that picture of you, Enrico and Robert on the last day of high school in front of the school in the parking lot. How is it possible that you barely made it three months in the "real world"? All of those years of going to school, doing your homework, taking tests, etc. Was it a waste? It's just a shame. Everything was just beginning. So close to starting college-your orientation was a week after your funeral. How did this happen? Why did this happen?
As I was nearing the school, I was noticing some of the students' cars-some SUV's and trucks, nice and "safe". There were some junkers though. Would you be alive today if you had a "safer" vehicle? I know the answer to that. Your death was going to happen one way or another. It was part of a plan. God's plan for you. I know I will thank God for this someday. Someday.
I'm mad-I thought I was doing pretty well today. It just goes to show that it doesn't take much to start the tears flowing again. Help me get through this God! Love you sweet boy!
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