Ever since your accident, I would hate to see Silverados and notice how huge they were, knowing that your body was at the mercy of that huge grill, etc. I would always imagine your precious little head against that metal and it was horrifying.
When I was in the car though this weekend and passed a truck (a Crop Production Services truck, no less), right before that truck turned in front of me, the song "Forever Young" came on the radio by Rod Stewart. I know that's the closest thing to my "Forever Young" by the Canadian Tenors which will never be on the radio, and it made me think of you.
Anyway, for some reason, I started talking out loud to myself and about the accident, and realized that your head never came into contact with that truck. The truck caused the force which crunched your car and the A-pillar caving in on your head in the car, but it's not like you were a pedestrian and there was nothing between you and the front of that truck. Also, the force of being spun around did more damage to you as well. Those forces can't be seen-they're invisible. They result in damage and consequences, but I don't think I need to glare at those trucks with such hatred and contempt anymore. I know the physical aspect of the truck caused damage, but it crushed your car which caused the damage to you. You were still in your car and not open and exposed to the truck directly. I don't know why that makes me feel better about trucks, but I guess that's a good thing.
This made me think of a verse in Colossians (I almost typed "Collisions" by mistake). Well these weren't exactly what I was remembering, but they are close:
Colossians 1:16: For by Him all things were created that are in heaven and that are on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or principalities or powers. All things were created through Him and for Him.
Ephesians 6:12: For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness, in the heavenly places.
It was a physical force of nature, related to the physical make-up of the truck, but there (I just thought of the picture of your car from the police report and realized that it was worse than from the crash itself since they had to extricate you from the vehicle.) Why are these things making me feel better? You still died from the accident! What could be worse than that? Your suffering is worse than that. You being in any kind of pain at all is worse than that. God spared you that suffering. His Own Son wasn't even spared that. Oh, how He loves us. Praise His Holy Name!
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