Toxic cycle

 From Hidden Gems

The toxic cycle

One we know too well, we seem to normalize when it shouldn't be. I think it's because we don't talk enough about the unspoken truths in every part of the story, we just talk about our pain and run with it. We don't talk about the constant circle we end up in when we're begging them to understand our love when it's not us that needs to be forgiven, but we make it our mission to be. We don't talk about the marathons we run to try and keep up with the fantasy we placed. We don't talk about the excuses we make for "love" when there's none involved, just the love we feel, even then, it doesn't seem real. We don't talk about the fact love doesn't conquer all and sometimes it hurts, only because we confuse it with pain. We become toxic to ourselves by letting them dive deeper and take a new piece of us with them every time they puncture the wound that never seems to heal. We tend to place ourselves in the mirror of deception, taking the blame for everything that destroyed us to accept them as who we thought of them to be, not the character they presented constantly. The toxic cycle of trying to make someone understand you're a beautiful soul, but they hold no capacity because they don't see themselves that way.