Tan suit?

Whenever I think of you in your casket (which I try not to), I realized recently that I always imagine you being in a tan suit. You had your black suit on so I don't know why I always imagine you with a tan one on. You never even had a tan suit. I actually have to force myself to think of you in the black one and even when I do, it's extremely difficult.

Even when I try to do it now, it's almost impossible. I imagine you in it when we first saw you at the funeral home and at the church. Maybe it's too weird to link that suit to you there because it was the suit you wore for band (I remember how hard I tried to keep track of your bow tie and then we lost it for the last concert), that was the suit you wore in your senior pictures, for senior night at water polo (even though you wore your swimsuit for the actual program), and for the water polo banquet. Maybe that's why I have a hard time linking that to your death-because it was so much a part of your life. I don't know-it's really weird. One of the weirdest parts is that I just realized it recently. Love you boy!