What's Your Excuse?

I have often thought since your accident about all of the people who wasted opportunities and time they could have spent with you even though they were given countless chances and chose not to. Unfortunately, these people I speak of are related to us. (This is one of the reasons why I am hesitant to share this blog with others, because some of them could hurt people's feelings, but I don't want to censor them because then they wouldn't be coming from my heart). People who were given three years of your travel baseball schedule and still didn't come to ONE game even when some of them were in Saline. People who didn't come to ONE of your senior water polo games. People who didn't come to Senior Night. People who chose to bring your Christmas presents to work some years instead of having us over to get them from their house (although in the past few years effort was made to deliver them to you at our house on Christmas morning). People who didn't go to any of your band concerts but want to know when all of Hope's and Carter's are now. People who only did ONE THING A YEAR with you. ONE THING! People who said to me as they looked at you in your casket that they were sorry they didn't spend more time with you and all I could do was nod. People who didn't give anything to your Haiti trip but want to create a fund to send someone now? What is wrong here?
   People who didn't even know or care when your birthday was but this year were all over having a big celebration for it. People who didn't care about having your senior picture but have to have one now. Where were these people when you were alive?  They don't even know what they missed. Maybe it's easier for them now that you are gone because they didn't know you that well anyway. Well, they lost out-BIG TIME. I am thankful that Hope and Carter are benefitting from their mistakes but they can never get back that time with YOU. I hope this didn't make you feel any less special or worthy because it shouldn't have. You didn't deserve that type of treatment.They are stupid and selfish people!
   The place we are going to for Thanksgiving have NEVER had us over for this holiday. NEVER! Someone who will be at this dinner told me that no kids were invited to her wedding-not even you guys! What is their problem? Do you know how much fun it would have been to have you there? I just don't get it-if they don't like me or what. Or they are stupid and selfish people-or were anyway. It's different now but it's sad because I am sure they are realizing that they should have been better then. Why do people think they have all of the chances in the world? Do they think that nothing bad can ever happen? Well, guess what-the worst thing ever happened! It's too late for them! They must have so many regrets! That is their punishment I suppose unfortunately.

Side note, looking back on writing this: This turned out a lot meaner than I wanted it to. A lot of it is true though unfortunately. I can only hope that people learned something from this experience and have changed their ways now. It's sad though that you had to die for that to happen.