Still alive

 Have you ever grieved someone who is still alive? A parent who will never show up the way you need.

A sibling who will never acknowledge what happened. You're not grieving their death. You're grieving the version of them you hoped for. That's anticipatory grief. And it hurts because you finally accepted they are not going to become who you needed them to be. Do you understand how heavy that is?

~Zenda Lee Williams