Not His fault

The other night on the way to Wal-Mart, I had a revelation. I think I've been unknowingly blaming God for Bill's behavior and wondering why I'm being punished for being unhappy with his behavior. I realized that Bill's behavior is not God's fault. Bill has the freedom to make choices, and he's making bad ones.

I realized that I have been holding this against God, like this is how marriage is and I have to put up with it. It's not. What Bill is doing is wrong. And God doesn't like it.

I wrote about this in my notebook at home, but I've been thinking about it because it's whacked.
Bill said that Pastor told him that he was free to remarry if we got a divorce because of my "infidelity." My "double infidelity." When NOTHING happened. But then, because in the case of the Worrells', because Katrina DIDN'T cheat on Steve, he is NOT allowed to remarry.

So, let me get this straight. If Katrina had committed a "sin" with another man, and she was unrepentant about it, Steve would have been free to remarry after the divorce. The reason for this is because unrepentant infidelity is a Biblical reason for divorce. So, IF SHE SINNED in that way, that would have been a benefit to Steve in that he could remarry. Because she DID NOT SIN in that way, Steve is being punished and is not allowed to remarry. That makes NO sense to me. NONE. I may continue this...