Better

 "you deserve better"

but the truth is i didn't want someone better.

i wanted you to be better. i wasn't asking for

perfection, just a little more effort, a little more

care, something to show me that i mattered to you.

i wasn't searching for someone new. i was hoping

you would grow into the person who could love me

the way i needed to be loved. i wanted you to try, to

understand me, to listen when I was hurting, to

stop doing the things that made me hurt. i didn't

want to change you. i wanted you to want to

change for us, not because i begged you to, but

because you didn't want to lose me. you let go

when all i ever wanted was for you to hold on and

fight for me. and that's the part that still hurts.

i never needed someone better. i just needed you

to be better.