The Lord will repay

This is jumping ahead of myself, but since Dad's "revelation", I have had a lot of mixed emotions of what I have had to endure (albeit unfairly) all these years. Thoughts came to me such as: there has to be a punishment doesn't there, I got screwed over and I did NOTHING wrong, I was cheated out of years of happiness, I am holding all the cards, I am owed something, I am expected to just welcome him back with open arms. He messed with me-my head, my heart, my life, my relationships, my self-esteem, and my well-being.

The next day when I saw these notes I scribbled down, I had one thing to say: The Lord will repay.

That reminds me that there was a Max Lucado devotional on this topic today or yesterday. I will look it up.

Here it is. It's from today.

God Will Do What Is Right
by Max Lucado

If you are rehashing the same hurt every chance you get with anyone who will listen, I have a question. Why are you doing God's work for him? "Vengeance is mine," God declared, "I will repay" (Hebrews 10:30). To assume the otherwise is to assume God can't do it. When we strike back we are saying, "I know vengeance is yours, God, but I just didn't think You would punish enough. I thought I'd better take this situation into my hands."

May I restate the obvious? If vengeance is God's, then it's not ours. God has not asked us to settle the score or get even. Ever. Forgiveness is not saying the one who hurt you was right. Forgiveness is stating that God is fair and he will do what is right. After all, don't we have enough things to do without trying to do God's work too?