Unconditionally

From day 59 of Grief Bites, A New Approach. Only one day left of this series-I'm sad!

When I went through a very tough seven years of trials and grief, I began to truly fall apart. The last three years of this specific long season of grief, I began to majorly resent my grief.

I had experienced several deaths of loved ones, watched my son go through surgeries and consultations for tumors, went through terrible pain in my marriage and almost got divorced, went through a cancer scare and had two surgeries, and then I was diagnosed with a life-long autoimmune illness which made me severely ill and in constant pain.

I was worn out with grief. (Author added periods between each word, but those annoyed me).

As I cried out to God, seeking to understand why so much had to happen all at once, I shared with Him how hard the last several years had been.

As I was tempted to be filled with bitterness and resentment from my circumstances, God was good to remind me of a life-changing fact.

I could feel him asking my heart, "(Andi), did you give your heart and life to me?"

"Yes, Lord. Of course I did."

I felt God further questioning my heart, "How much of your life did you give to me...a little of it, some of it, or all of it?...And was it conditionally or unconditionally?"

"All of it, Lord...and unconditionally."

I was beautifully humbled and reminded in that quiet moment that I was bought at a very high price...I unconditionally gave and surrendered my life to the Lord to use however He saw best.

Sometimes we can resent our griefs and trials...and feel as though we got the short end of the stick in life.

We struggle through our emotions and try to balance out what has happened.

We try to balance what is fair vs. unfair, right vs. wrong, and justice vs. injustice.

The problem is, the scales will never balance out fairly...not here on earth.

One day, God will balance everything out and the scales will make perfect sense,

But while on earth, when we feel as though our world has fallen apart, it is vital to remember Whose we are and trust God to repair and heal all of the broken fragments of our grief and life. He is an amazing source of comfort and He is our greatest advocate.

When you fully give and surrender your heart and life to Him, He is faithful to work out each and every situation of grief you go through.

When you have days where you feel hopeless, discouraged, or brokenhearted, remember Whose you are...and that He is there!


He bought you at a great price and is faithful to make Romans 8:28 come alive to you through your grief and for your life!

Verse:
1 Corinthians 6:20: For you were bought at a price; therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God's.