Falling asleep

For some reason lately, I have really been contemplating the possibility that you fell asleep at the wheel. There was a follow-up to an article I printed out a week or so ago about an 18-year-old girl who crossed the centerline and hit a mom and her kids (they all lived and are ok), and the girl said that she fell asleep at the wheel. She had been severely sleep-deprived, but I know it can happen when someone is even a little sleepy. I remember driving to Novi to work in the morning and forcing myself to stay awake. That was a pretty long drive, but it can hit at weird times. Wagner Rd. has rolling hills and I supposed after an extended period of time, it can lull you to sleep if you're already a little sleepy to begin with. You were super busy that summer and that week with the morning back-to-back clinics plus you had stayed out late the night before.

(Side note:  I have printed out many articles about crashes so I can follow-up and find out what caused them, and this is like one of two that have actually had a follow-up article.)

Today, related to that article, there was an article on annarbor.com about Sleepy Driving. As I was printing it out, the song Collide came on Pandora. I feel that has some significance. I have written about that song before.

That would explain a lot. I still believe that you were incapacitated in some way to drift over and have one car swerve out of your way before you hit the truck. It's weird to think of you having a brain aneurysm or something because that seems like it would be really rare, or if you had something like a stroke. Passing out-I don't know. I know I've written about that before. I passed out once when I was a teenager, but I had just gotten up out of bed in a hot house and I was having my period. I know people pass out for weird reasons though, and if it happens while you're driving, that's super-dangerous. There have been some cases at the office where people have had accidents because of that, where they "wake up" and don't know what happened. Then there was that young girl who was dehydrated and she passed out at the wheel. With all your working out, I suppose it was a possibility.

How does it make me feel to consider that possibility? It makes me feel better than thinking you had something go severely wrong medically. I personally believe that your phone wasn't involved, even though others do. I still think the part of the road where it happened is significant, since the other lane shifts over to the right. Even if you were a little closer to the center than you should have been, if the other driver didn't notice the shift or didn't get over enough, that just closes the gap even further where you both were even closer. Add the limited sight distance on that little hill and it's very easy to see how this happened. It shouldn't be some great mystery.

It's hard to not try to figure out what happened. I'm glad I'm not obsessed with it though. No matter what actually happened, that is the time that God planned to take you home. His timing is perfect. This couldn't have been prevented. You are where you should be. I miss you though. So much. Love you sweet boy!