Speechless

Anna W. posted this over the weekend. Still hard to believe Daniel is really gone.

"Last night I went to sleep peacefully in a hotel room. I woke a few hours later to the sound of screams and sobs from the room next door, and my body understood before my head did. This wasn't drama, this wasn't a fight; this was the sound that broken hearts make when a loved one isn't waking up, isn't going to be waking up. And everything after that-the sudden hush, the lights but no sirens, the empty stretcher, the emergency responders without urgency, that heavy silence that might take days and weeks and months to lift-felt so familiar that I've been a little speechless ever since.".

(not sure if she also wrote this or if it's from something else):

when the simple space
between this breath and the next
becomes the silent summons
for a heartbeat
that will not repeat
we come to realize that
everything we ever knew
was nothing much at all


(Side note: Things that gave me chills when I recorded this-"my body understood before my head did", "this was the sound that broken hearts make when a loved one isn't waking up, isn't going to be waking up", "everything that we ever knew was nothing much at all")