Self-sabotage

 When it's someone's first

time to be treated right in a

relationship, their tendency is

to self-sabotage it.

Not because they don't want

it, but because it feels "too

good to be true" and their brain

can't process what is 

happening with them.

Incredibly special

They always saw something

incredibly special in you.

And they were hoping with all of

their might you'd never see it too.

~Samira Vivette, from her book, "Wildfire"

Ironic

 Isn't it ironic?

"We ignore the ones who adore us,

adore the ones who ignore us,

love the ones who hurt us and

hurt the ones who love us."

Astonishing light

 I wish I could show you,

when you are lonely or in darkness,

the astonishing light of your own being.

~Hafiz

The magic

 When you realize you are the

magic, their rejection won't

rattle you, it'll just reveal who

was never ready for it.

~Truly Healed Women

Finally detached

 What made you finally detached?

I asked myself if this is how I want to be

loved for the rest of my life.

Want

No, f that. I want you. I want to love you. I want to 

want you like no one else has ever before. I want to be

the one you think about at 3 am and the one you wish

was there at 5 in the afternoon. I want to be the one to

make you laugh until you can't breathe anymore and the

only thing you have left is the short breaths you have to

take in from your stomach hurting. I want to be the one

to tell you how beautiful you are in any hour of the day

and meaning it every time. I want to be there for you

when you're feeling like s, to be the one to tell you

that it's going to be okay. I want to be the one to have

those "I love you more" conversations and still let you

win at the end of the day just because I adore you. I

want to be the one you look forward to talking to, not

just the other way around. I want to be that person

you'll share your deepest secrets with, the one you trust

the most to let you cry and still hold you afterwards. I 

want you to let me love you, in every form and in every

way. I want to be that person you let see your morning

hair, that person who tells you that you're still the most

breath-taking human even when you wake up. But most

of all, I want to be that person in years from now who

still looks at you is if you hung the f moon and 

say, "Yeah, that's mine."